Doctor Update

Well after talking to the doctor's office, the specialist is the only one down here that has jurisdictions at the same hospital my ob/gyn does. My doctor said that it was ultimately up to me which endocrinologist I choose, but if I use a different one and end up at a hospital, they couldn't come down here to nederland/pt arthur and he couldn't go up to beaumont. I love my doctor. He is very straight forward and answers any and all questions I have.

After many tears have been shed of not knowing what to do, reading the scriptures, saying our prayers and Adam and Matt giving me a blessing, we have decided that we want my doctors to be able to see me at the hospital and not just some random doctor that I've never met. (Course if my doctor's aren't on call that weekend I understand it might happen anyways...but my chances are better.) We are going to head to the hospital Monday morning and we'll see what happens.

I know people may have doubts and concerns for us and our little family, but we feel that we need to do this for the safety of me and the baby. We appreciate the thoughts and concerns. We have taken everyone's opinions into consideration and I think that is why I have been in tears so much is because I feel torn in several different directions. I feel I need to listen to this person or do what this other person says, but when it all comes down to it, our little family talked about all the different directions we could go and the things we've heard and taken it into consideration. We then prayed about them and we feel this is the best thing for us right now.

I am going to have to miss class, but it's worth it to make sure the baby and me will be okay. Wish us luck and keep us in your prayers. We'll update you next week when get home and let you all know what's going on.

The Results are In...

The doctor called and said that my three hour glucose test came back abnormal. They want me to see a specialist that wants me to be admitted to the hospital Monday at 7 am and stay for two days. Hospital? Are you kidding me... I am going to call the doctor back in the morning to see if there are any other options or a different specialist I can see. I don't want to miss two classes...I will if I have to but I don't want to. I hate the idea of hospitals and needles and doctors. So we'll see what the doctor says tomorrow. Wish me luck.

so...

say a little prayer for us...

Cats!

So ever since I can remember my mom has made us Cat Cookies. She makes sugar cookies and puts a peppermint patty on the cookie for the body and then two chocolate chips makes up the head and one makes up the tail. She sets the chips on there and lets them get melty and then uses a toothpick to form the head and tail. Here are some pictures...

This is her forming the head on one of the cookies. The bottom cookie hasn't been formed yet.
This is her working on the other cookie. You can see the cat on the one she just finished.

This is the finished product.

Don't they look good??

That's that in a nut shell.

Speeches, Tests, and a Birthday

I "get" to give my dreaded speech on Thursday. We have had 9 people go so far and he was looking for three volunteers so I volunteered. I'm so nervous. It's my How To...I just have to figure out what to do a How To about. My professor looked at me after one of the speeches that went today and said see me after class. I was so nervous. I wasn't sure if I had done something wrong or not. That's his thing. He always says see me after class. So after class I packed my bag and walked up to talk to him and he said "when is your due date?" And I answered "January 20". He said "okay it's after the semester is over, but if for some reason something happens I want you to have my home number so you can call and let me know what's going on and if you need to take the final early, I will work with you and give you the information to study and a review." He gave me his phone number and I said "Thank you so much" and left the class. I am so excited to have a professor as nice as Mr. Warren is. He is a professor that actually cares about his students. It is amazing.

After I left school, I went and picked up my lab report from the doctor so I could do my little three hour blood glucose test. Wahoo. I tried to go do the test today, but they closed at noon for lunch and it was 9:47. Are you kidding me? They open at 7 tomorrow so looks like I am headed there in the morning. For the three hour one, you can't eat or drink anything after midnight. It's so crazy. I wish I could have gotten it done and over with.

Today is one of my older brother's birthday. If I was craving a cookie, I would have gone and gotten him one that said Happy Birthday Court on it or something to that sort since he lives 2 1/2 hours away. I wouldn't drive to bring it to him or anything. I would just take a picture to let him know I was celebrating. But I haven't wanted any real sweets lately. So I'll just post it here for him...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY COURT! HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY!

that's that in a nut shell.

FHE

"Welcome to Family Home Moment" as Michael McLean's wife would say (according to what he said Friday night at TOFW). Well ours was longer than a moment. Matt and Kari said they were going to carve pumpkins and such and I kinda invited Adam and me. I didn't really care about the whole pumpkin carving thing. I just haven't had the seeds in such a long time that I wanted to roast them. But we picked up a pumpkin too at the store and after dinner, we got down to business and started carving. Adam picked out what he wanted to carve on it. Can you guess which one is Matt and Kari's and which one is Adam's and mine?
To see more pictures, you will have to log on to Matt's blog. He has lots of them and a cute video.
http://mattplaybass.blogspot.com/
Enjoy! That's that in a nut shell.

Home at Last

So the new shoes Adam let me buy wouldn't fit on Saturday morning because my feet and legs were swollen. UGH. I was so sad. I looked cute and then all I could fit in were my flip flops. The Conference went well. We had fun spending "quality time" together. The car ride home seemed so long. I guess because we split it in half on the way up and we really didn't on the way back. We just had a few bathroom stops and we stopped to eat fast food. I was happy to be home and I think Adam was happy I was home too. My feet and legs are finally not swollen anymore. I propped them up on a pillow all night. I fit in my shoes again. We'll we all had fun and we are all home safe. That's that in a nut shell.

Time Out for Women

Well we left this morning at 9 am to head to San Antonio. Our car was Mom, Grammer (mom's mom), Sarah (kev's wife), Kari and Me. I got the front because I'm "pregnant" and Grammer didn't want me to get sick. Haha. I was stoked. The other car (the Lufkin car) was Caryn, Janelle (Court's wife), and Sunshine (Caryn's good friend but we have all become good friends with her). So all the girls in our family were headed out.

We met at the Katy Mills Mall and ate at the food court and did a little shopping. I found a cute pair of shoes. I need a cute pair of black shoes for tomorrow to go with my slacks and for Kari's wedding. Adam said I could get them and it was buy one get one 1/2 off. Mom had a pair of shoes too, but hers were 16 bucks and mine were 50 bucks. So they did the half off on Mom's shoes and she got hers for 8 bucks. We then headed to San Antonio and checked into the hotel.

We went and bought tickets for tonights part of the conference. Then we headed to the Riverwalk Mall and ate at Chilis. It was horrible. The food was good, but the service was horrible. It took forever for the waiter to do anything and poor Sunshine was without a drink for about 30 or 45 minutes. I would have been too, but luckily there was a wall thing next to mom with a pitcher of water sitting on it. I was so excited. I think I drank like 5 glasses. I have been so hot all day. We were a few minutes late to the conference thanks to the waiter, but it was amazing.

My favorite part was Michael Mclean. He is an amazing song writer. He just wrote a song called "Sick and Tired". It's about sick and tired of being sick and tired. It kinda fits me perfectly. A lot of his songs did. I have just been very stressed and it just fit. I was glad we were able to get tickets to go in.

Adam and Matt are at home and I hear they did a little bit of the remodeling tonight at mom and dad's since we were gone. Poor guys are now not feeling well because they were sanding what they taped and floated the other day. I'm ready to go home and be with my husband. I don't like being away from him. I cried when he left for work this morning. I cried when I went to Lufkin last weekend to see Caryn (these are both just for one night...ugh). I cried in April when he left me from Wed to Sat for school stuff (a month after we were married).

Oh and as we were getting in the car this morning, the doctor's office called and my blood glucose test came back negative so I have to go do the three hour one sometime next week. Are you kidding me. So it has been a tearful day, but a good one after all. That's that in a nut shell. I'm going to bed.

Sad Day for Adam

So when Adam leaves me in the morning to head to work, he won't see me until late Saturday night. I am heading to a Womens Conference tomorrow morning with my mom and sisters and sisters in law. He will just have to spend the weekend hanging out with Matt. Poor Fellow. I'm off the hook for Tuesday to do my speech too. We can only do 3 speeches a day and there were three volunteers so I'll volunteer to go to next Thursday I guess. Well that's that in a nut shell.

What to do

What do you do when you are in a group project and even though there was a large hurricane that put us all out for about a week and a half to two weeks or more the professor doesn't move the due date back? I guess she doesn't care that that was two weeks of precious time you and your group could have been communicating but didn't due to no power. Well that kinda bugs me first of all.

Second of all there are three of us in the group. One was wanting to drop the class and trying to graduate, but the professor wouldn't let her drop it. So we didn't hear from her until October 15th or so. Can you believe it? She didn't tell us she was trying to drop or anything. For all we knew her house could have been thrashed and she could have fallen off the face of the earth. The main partner that did help with the project did about 99.9 percent of the paper. I did (and/or Adam) 99.9 percent of the powerpoint. What kind of grade are we supposed to give this girl? I don't want her to fail because she is trying to graduate. But she put in little to no effort at all with our project. What's a girl to do??? Well that's that in a nut shell.

Baby Update

I had my checkup today at the doctor. I have gained 9 lbs total my whole pregnancy so far. I am pretty excited about that because I was so large to begin with. Baby Haynes heart rate was 142. Not too shabby. I had to take the blood glucose test today. I kinda hated it. That stuff is so nasty and I don't do needles. I hear the epidural needle is very large. I dunno if I can handle that. Adam said that on my way to the hospital when I go into labor he is calling to make sure the anesthesiologist is there so that I will quit complaining right when I get there. He said I'll be lucky if we get to have another one because I have complained so much during this one. With no gallbladder and a hernia, it hasn't been easy. But I am surviving. Well, That's that in a nut shell.

Hmm...

With so much that is going on, I feel like I don't have time for anything. I mean I really do, but sometimes it feels like I don't. Homework is piling on. Stress is piling on. The calendar seems really full. I have homework due here. Adam has homework due there. A wedding in the family. Graduation (will it ever come?). A baby. I have another doctor's appointment Wednesday so we'll see how it goes. I have my graduation interview or whatever today. I can't believe I have to have an interview to graduate. I also had to bring in one of my research papers. Craziness. I'm tired of going to class every Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. The semester needs to be over. When will it end? I have been doing laundry all morning though so at least I'm being productive without my job. Hopefully Adam will be proud. :) Well, that's that in a nut shell.

I HATE Cats!

Matt just took me to pickup my car from the tire place and I ran home to get a few things. Guess what was on my porch. Three Kittens. I hate cats. I always have and I think I always will. Here is a little picture. There are only two in the picture. One is a yellowish color (on the far right) and the other is a grayish color (in the middle on the rug).

Dang It...

So I got up this morning at 9 and did some laundry, washed the dishes, got ready for my day and headed to Walmart. We needed a few things and I needed a few things for Kari's shower tomorrow. Instead of cake she wants cookies, so I had to go get some stuff to make cookies. I walked out of Walmart and got all the things in my truck and then realized my back driver side tire was flat. Are you kidding me. I have a flat. So I called Adam and asked him if I should change it right there in the Walmart parking lot, or drive to the very front of the parking lot and stop at Discount Tire. He said to just drive there. Well the tire is so bad off, they have to put a new one on. Ahh. A new one. I don't want to have to pay for the new tire. Then they said that my back passenger tire was in pretty bad shape too and wouldn't pass inspection. So I called Adam and asked him if he wanted me to go ahead and get one or two tires. My inspection is up this month (so I would have to get another tire anyways.) It is also good to get two tires at once. They say you shouldn't buy tires one at a time. So he told me to get the two tires. I paid for it and Matt, Mom, and Kari came and picked me up. Luckily they were right there so they didn't have to drive far to get me.

I texted Matt and asked if they could come get me if it was going to be a long wait cause I had groceries in the car. He immediately started calling me and I ignored it once or twice and then answered and said I'm talking to the guy at discount tire I'll call you back. The next thing I know, Matt is tapping on my back for my keys and he went and moved the groceries into their car. Yippee! Luckily they were right there so they didn't have to drive far to get me. Needless to say I got two new tires the day we got married in March and now I am getting two more new ones. It was much needed I think, but still. A FLAT? Well...That's that in a nut shell.

How Rude

So I have been at my mom's most of the day just relaxing and hanging out after I got out of school. We just got home and I am so ticked. We are on one of corner trailers in our lot. Our driveway is in between our trailer and the one next to us. So when you turn in it's our trailer, then our driveway, then the neighbors. However, It has become impossible for Adam to get his car in the driveway because they constantly have friends over that park perpendicular to the trailers and half of their vehicles are blocking our driveway. We have two spots. One for Adam's car and one for mine. I park closest to the trailer so it's easier in the rain to get inside. Adam had to pull in at an angle today because it was blocked so much by a brand spanking new truck. I kinda want the truck to burn because I'm so ticked about it. They blocked Matt's car in the other day. Yeah I'm not kidding. Matt was at work so Matt just parked in the driveway instead of on the other side of our trailer and they parked behind his car so he couldn't get out. He was kinda ticked, but didn't have anywhere to go so he didn't go ask them to move. I wish he would have. I told Adam to go talk to them tonight, but he said it was too late. UGH. I'm not going to do it. It's a bunch of guys living next door and do you think they are going to listen to a pregnant lady, nah probably not. One day they were parked in our driving blocking the whole thing. Yeah in our driveway. Adam got home and pushed on the horn and just left it for about a minute. The guy came running out and apologized, but still. I don't care who you are. Don't block my driveway. It is inconsiderate and makes me mad.

Lemme Tell Ya

I woke up at 6:15 to the lovely alarm going off. All three of us at home have to be at Lamar at 8 on Tuesdays and Thursdays. So every Tuesday and Thursday the alarm goes off at the same time for me. I told Adam to hit snooze. The alarm then went off again at 6:20. I got out of bed and showered, dried my hair and got back in bed for twenty minutes or so. During that time, Matt gets in the shower and I get out of bed at 7:10 or so to turn on my straightener and fix my hair. I start waking Adam up at this time. I woke him up at 7:17 today and he said to give him until 7:20. At 7:23 I told him to get out of bed and he just wouldn't do it. He was finally out of bed at about 7:30 or so. He is ridiculous.

I walked outside and it was raining. I hate rain. People are morons when they drive here in the rain. It's kinda like going to school up north and you have kids that don't know how to drive on snow and ice. Well people that live here don't know know how to drive in rain. They don't turn their lights on so you can't see them. Motorcycles still think they own the road and weave in and out of traffic. Cars slam on their breaks realizing they should have turned. You can't slam on your breaks in the rain...you skid and slide and could hydroplane. Are you kidding me. This is craziness. I have another speech coming up. It's a How-To...they start on Tuesday and I didn't volunteer to go on Tuesday so I might go on Thursday. He said we will only get through about 3 each day or so. Are you kidding me. Just three...We will never get through 4 speeches at this rate. Well that's that in a nut shell.

Well...

I feel like I need to keep my friends updated and I have no real life anymore so I suppose that means I feel as though I need to post my thoughts and feelings on the blog. It was so nice to knowingly not have to go to work anymore. I nudged Adam when the alarm went off at 7:10 and again at 7:15 and again at 7:20 it seemed like. He likes to sleep as long as he can and I don't blame him. I got to sleep until about 9:30 or so... :)

It is hard for me to believe we are halfway through October. It seems like the days just fly by. Soon we will be at the temple for Kari and Matt's wedding. This year, four Fruge's graduated or will by December and after November 22, two Fruge's were married. It has been a crazy year for us all to say the least. My wedding in March. Crick's graduation in April (or maybe May, I can't remember). Kevin's graduation in May. Kari's graduation in August (she walked in August and will get her actual diploma after she finishes her internship in December). Kari's wedding November 22. Then My graduation in December!!!

I have so many things to do today, but I just don't want to get going. Here it is almost 11 and I still haven't showered. But I do have clothes in the dryer that I want to wear today so I guess that is my excuse. I guess that's that in a nut shell.

A Sigh of Relief

I went to school this morning and listened to other people give their speeches. It took us two weeks to finish the first speech. Are you kidding me? Two weeks? School is finished in like 8 or 9 weeks. How are we going to have time to do three more speeches when it takes a whole class for him to discuss what we are supposed to put in our speeches. Then two weeks to give a speech. That doesn't give much time at all. Unless the speeches are boom boom boom. Which I hope not. The next speech is a How to. I think I want to do it on how to make cookies. Everyone seems to like mom's cookies a lot. So I think if I have everything measured out and dump it in the bowl and mix it, then have cookies already made I should do pretty decent right? I just don't know if he would appreciate me mixing with a mixer during class. So I am not sure what to do with that there. I guess we shall see.

I also found out that I am being taken off the schedule at work. I know what your thinking. How could the manager not know she is getting taken off the schedule. Well my replacement told my boss I have been sick a lot, so they think it would be best for me not to wait on customers and for her to take over. I am just supposed to be a her disposal when she needs help. I made sure today before I left that she knew that I wouldn't/couldn't always jump right then and run up there when she needs me. I am kinda depressed that now I don't have to go to work, but I am also kinda excited that my set schedule is gone. Well except for school.

Caryn, Janelle, Sunshine and Mom did a great job on Kari's Bridal Shower invitations. The Poem is so cute and the design is too. I'll have to find one and take a picture with my phone or something to show everyone and I'll post the poem too. Well that's that in a nut shell.

I don't know

So I really am not sure what to title this blog. Jacquie wanted me to post a picture of my big ol' belly. So here it is at almost 26 weeks.
I look like blah today and my face is still broken out like crazy so that's why I chopped my face off. One day when I'm dressed way cute and look decent, I will take another picture.

We went to a family reunion yesterday and then went to a wedding reception for a friend of ours. We didn't get home until mid-night and I was exhausted. I jumped out of bed at 8:05 when I realized that we had hit snooze so many times it shut off. I actually was showered, dressed, hair dried and straightened and at church before it started at 9. Pretty crazy I know. Adam finally got out of bed around 8:25. He doesn't need much time to get ready because his hair dries in like ten seconds. I forgot to eat breakfast and was starving by Relief Society. Luckily someone a few chairs down had a granola bar for me to snack on. Thanks Angela!!

Well that's that in a nut shell.

So...

I went to the mall a half hour away yesterday after posting. (Ours is kinda crappy.) I wasn't really in the mood to shop, but I needed to so I went. I needed out of the house for a bit. I started off in JcPenny's and didn't have much luck at all at finding anything. At least nothing jumped out at me and I wasn't in the mood to dig through hundreds of clothes to find something. Adam met me there after work and I had only been there about 5 minutes, but I had already wandered off to the baby section. Ever since Hunter was born, I have enjoyed looking at baby stuff. It is so cute. I showed a few things to Adam when he met up with me and he put them in his hands and then he put like 5 more outfits in his hands. So appariently we were shopping for the baby the whole time and Adam is convinced that he likes the name Parker just from reading it off of one of those websites that has baby names on it. I told him I couldn't name him Parker cause my friends just named their son Parker, but looks like Parker it is.

So after we bought lil Parker 7 new outfits, we wandered over to Motherhood and I got 1 nice shirt, 2 undershirts for it (its a lil see-through so I have to have a shirt under it), 1 pair of black slacks, and 1 pair of jeans. Wahoo. I was pretty stoaked that something fit. I have had a hard time in the past making something fit there. But it worked. So needless to say I have a cute outfit and a new pair of jeans for all the activities we have that I need to dress nicer for!!

Disgusted

I hate being so emotional. You know I am grateful to be pregnant but I hate this. I don't care what anyone says. I cry at the blink of an eye and no one knows why. I don't know why. I just happens. The slightest things offend me. Someone raising their voice to me, Adam leaving and going to work, being compared to other people. I know there are people in this world that would do anything to be able to carry their own child for 10 lovely months. I love it. I love hearing the little heartbeat and seeing him on the ultrasound. I love feeling him move around and kick. I hate the things it has done to me though.

I have always been emotional but it has gotten worse. I just get so sad or so mad at times and I can't seem to help it. I hate when other people compare their pregnancy to mine. I am not you I am different. We are all different. It's like your pregnant and that's the thing to talk about. I don't know why I hate it, but I do. It's like your pregnancy couldn't be worse than theirs or something I dunno. My pregnancy hasn't been bad. I have been doing well, but come on.

I hate only having a select wardrobe. And select I mean that I can now only fit into 3 pair of capris and the shirts I wear are just the perfect fit tees from Old Navy because the maternity ones are huge on me. These are tight around my stomach, but they fit and at least I'm comfy. I hate not looking cute like my friends did when they were pregnant (yeah hil you are one of them). I look at their pictures and just get disgusted because I can't find anything modest and cute for maternity ladies. Here in Texas I guess they assume that pregnant ladies have no sense of style or something. I have two dresses I fit in and so they get rotated out every Sunday. My denim skirt is getting snug, but I still wear it occasionally to change it up. You can't just buy clothes online because half the time they aren't modest enough (if you know what I'm saying).

After I have this kid, my goal is to lose lots of weight so I can fit in cute clothes and not look like a blob. Hence why my title is called disgusted because I feel disgusted and I wanted to go shopping for new clothes, but I'm kinda not in the mood now thanks to well nevermind.

I am just in a bad mood and felt like complaining. The End.

Adam's Happy Birthday

Well I'll admit that Adam probably didn't have the best birthday he's ever had and I tried to make it a good one because it is the first one since we have been married. He didn't want to go to work yesterday. He just wanted to stay home, but knows that we don't get paid if he doesn't go to work so on his way he went. I made him a little lunch (I think we may continue this...its cheaper than him going to subway everyday). He came home and I had dinner pretty much ready. He wanted french bread pizza. Why you ask. I have no idea. He said that is what he wanted. So I made that and corn. Afterward Matt brought his cookie out. I didn't want him to know that we got him one, but he had a pretty good idea because lately we have been doing cookies for everything. It was cute. It said Happy Birthday Adam (the Adam looked stupid though they wrote it weird) and it had a guitar with music notes.

He hasn't really been playing his guitar since we got married. I think cause he is tired all the time from working all day and then homework at night. We get in bed between 10-12 every night, but he doesn't fall asleep until like 2 or 3 poor guy. My head hits the pillow and I am out in about 20 minutes. He plays on Matts occasionally but not much. He hung one of his guitars on our wall though. It's a nice fit you know my decor and his decor.

Well back to his birthday...I had Matt go with me to pick out his gift because I really had no idea what to get him. He is so hard to shop for. I pick things out in the store and he never likes it. He picks things out and I don't like it. Etc. I think I smelled half a dozen cologne samples yesterday and finally found one I like. I got him Armani Code. He loves it. It is one that Matt likes too, so if Matt liked it, I was pretty certain Adam would too because they are a lot alike. After he saw his cookie I went and got his gift and he was excited. I was sad I couldn't get him more than one gift, but at least it was a nice one.

I have cut my hours back at work to two days a week. They don't really like it because I never close, etc. But come on. I have been there what 3 years and I'm the manager and pregnant and taking 16 hours at school. I am just getting tired of being there. The owner might not like it, but my replacement is there almost every day and she has been taking over a lot of things. If I am there with her all the time, she will never learn how to take care of things on her own. Matt gives me the hardest time because he wants to be there just as much as I do, but he is having a hard time finding a new job. I feel so bad for him. There isn't much I can do about it though.

Our weekends have been filling up as well. Conference last weekend. A wedding and family reunion this weekend. Then Kari's shower. Then all the girls in my family are going to Time out for Women in San Antonio (Adam said him and Matt are going to party with out Kari and Me home). November hasn't quite filled up as much as October, but we have Kari's Wedding and then December is our family Christmas one weekend then real Christmas and then January will be right around the corner and so will the birth of our little boy. Adam has been helping clean things up around the area as well. He complains that he never gets to sleep in. But that is life and he'll have to get over it. I keep reminding him that when the baby comes, he won't be able to sleep in anymore because we will "get" to take turns with the baby. He tells me that's why he needs lots of sleep now. Well that's it for now. Sorry I never got cute pictures of Adam posted, but that's life...you'll see. :)

Ode to my Speech

Everyone thinks they are cool enough to say "ode to ..." I wanted to be cool to, but I don't really have an ode I just have the facts on my speech that I was scared to death to give.

So as you read on Tuesday, I did not get to give me speech. I had Matt write my name on the board when he got there so that I could be first to get it over with. He gets there before I do because he has to get a parking spot. I use a special pass to park up close since I'm 6 month pregnant (I am glad I do too it was storming Tuesday when we got out of class). So I leave about 7:40 or so and get there right before class starts. I was first. I was so nervous. My hands were shaking. I couldn't get a breath. It felt like I was fighting for air. I had to take a few pauses to breathe. He said I did good. That I needed to breathe from my diaphram more yadda yadda yadda. I got a 94 on that little speech. YES you heard (read) correctly. I aced it. I was so excited. Our next speech is a "How To" speech so I think I am going to do it on how to make my chocolate chip cookies (well mom's recipe not mine). My friends and roommates seem to think they are good. So I think I'll do okay. We'll see.

Baby Haynes has really been kicking me lately. It is cool to be laying in bed and to feel him moving around. I can't wait for January. Graduation is a month before my due date and I had a dream last night that my water broke as I was receiving my diploma. Can you believe it. That's why Mom I shouldn't walk at graduation. I should just pay to have it mailed to me. :)

It's Happy Birthday to ADAM today. He's the big 24...I'll post some cute pictures of him later.

Such a Slacker

My sister, Caryn, made these for me and gave them to me at my bridal shower. (That was back in Feb.) Adam and I finally went and got the picture things so we could hang them on the wall. I am so excited that they are finally hanging up. Adam was trying to hang them up level, but it wasn't working out. We decided to hang them at different levels so that we wouldn't have to make them level and it adds character. I love it. They have been laid out on the bar, but I was tired of them being on the bar. So thanks Caryn for my lovely gift. I love them, but have been a slacker and haven't remembered to get the hanger things.

Well

I have been getting excited. It has been so long since we found out we were going to have a baby. I hate that I found out at like 4 or 5 weeks, it has sure made for a long pregnancy. But I am over half way there. I think only 15 weeks to go!! Wahoo. Which is really crazy because I think there are only 10 1/2 weeks left of school as well. I can't believe it. I am ready to have that lil diploma in my hands. I am not wanting to walk at graduation because of how large I will be, but mom really wants me to, so we shall see. I keep getting picked on that Adam is getting two diploma's because he helps me with my homework. Things that I just can't grasp or understand.

I am really having a hard time trying to figure out what to get the love of my life for his birthday. I knew his birthday was tomorrow, but I just kinda put it off. UGH. I am so bad about that. Luckily I am off all day today and all day tomorrow. He is just so picky when it comes to things. What to do what to do.

Drum Roll Please...

So all the freaking out about my speech...
All the nerves...
All the anticipation...
I get to class today and sign up on the board and I'm going to be the fourth speech...
Yes the fourth...
Finally I will get to do my speech and get it over with...
It's about an hour and fifteen minute class...
So I am not too worried...
We only got through three speeches today...
Yes...
That's right...
Three...
I was number FOUR...
I have to wait another day to give my speech...
Isn't that crazy...
Ugh...
All the nerves are still in there...
All the panic...
All the anticipation...
I have to fret until Thursday now...
It is KILLING me...
UGH...
Continue to think about me because I feel as though I will never get to give my speech...
No I will have to wait for forever...

That's Life...You'll See...

So everyone knows that we have to work to make a living to be able to pay for the things we need...food, house, ac (its a necessity not a want hehe), running water, internet, etc. I am here to tell you though that I hate it. I dread waking up to go to work everyday. I hate the drive. I hate opening the doors and walking in. It is almost like 100 lbs pushes down on me. I hate the headaches. I want people there to do things and wish that they didn't have to call me every ten seconds. I want them to follow the rules so that I don't have to be the bad guy and get on to them. I can't wait to be done. I cut my hours down a lot this week because of just that. It like senioritis but workitis.

I have senioritis really bad too though. I hate getting up and being at school by 8 on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I hate that I have a Monday night class. Who wants to go sit in a classroom for three hours? NOT ME. I am ready to graduate and have it all done and over with. Adam is ready for me to be done too because I make him help me with all of my homework. He is lucky when I do an assignment on my own. I have gotten really lazy. I have helped him with his homework though. He had to cut out things this summer for his geology class and I did it for him. I would help him with more, but half the stuff that he takes I have no clue about.

My dreaded speech is tomorrow. UGH. I said Thursday or Friday that I was going to practice all weekend so I would be prepared and I haven't. I have been lazy. Why am I such a procrastinator? I have been one for years. I think it's a trait I get from my parents. They say we get a lot from our parents. Our kids are going to be in trouble.

I am convinced that I get stressed out so easily and I am so emotional because my mom was the Relief Society President when she was pregnant with me and had to make sure 120 sisters in the ward were okay and taken care of all the time. That's my story and I'm sticking to it.

I am ready for December to be here. The cool weather. Graduation (I am trying to convince my mom that I am not walking I'll be like 8 months pregnant. I don't want to sit through something for that long on a hard chair.) The baby's due date will be around the corner. I'll be done with work. I can't wait.

Why do I complain so much about everything and dislike things right now so much? Cause it's my life and something I have to deal with an put up with and I don't want to.

So...

I have heard that my blog posts are never positive and I never have anything good to say. Well "Miss" Jan this one is for you. I am so blessed to be married to a guy that treats me like a queen. We may disagree on a few things, but he does so much for me and works so hard to support our little family so that when this little baby comes, I will not have to work. I am so excited that we are going to be parents. (even though one of us is still a kid himself and I have to convince him to eat some veggies :) ) I am looking forward to hold this little baby in my arms and just look at him. I wasn't happy about being pregnant at first because I knew we couldn't afford diapers etc. However, we have been blessed because Adam got a way better job and we make enough to get diapers and formula. We still haven't agreed on a name yet...but hopefully soon we will be able to call him something besides him and baby. It definitely will not be Batman. I go back to the doc in a few weeks and can't wait. It has been a blessing even though without a gallbladder, my stomach hurts more, my clothes don't fit, I keep getting infections, etc. But it has truly been a blessing.

Rules

So I decided that since I am going to be a mom for the first time, that for this kid I can make up as many crazy things as I want to. If people have a problem with it...too bad.

- Everyone has to wash their hands before holding him (I don't care who you are)
- He is not the social event of the hour, therefore he will not be passed around everywhere I go
- No one that smells like smoke at all will be able to hold him. (I gag when I smell smoke and so think of how a lil baby feels when he has to smell it. YUCK!)
- Animal hair makes me barf - if its on you and you get it on him, I won't be a happy camper
- No you aren't taking him anywhere, so don't ask
- You can come visit, just call ahead to make sure it's okay
- If he is sleeping, I will be sleeping. It doesn't matter who is over or what they are doing. (thanks Court for the tip!)
- My rules stand even if I am not with him, so don't think you will get away with anything when he is with Adam. Like my mom says "I have spies everywhere."
- I will not be a stickler on him only eating every four hours. If he is hungry, he will eat.
- I will also not wake him up in the middle of the night to eat. When he gets hungry, he will let us know. Don't wake him to feed him.
- Do not kiss him and lipstick on his face. I hated that when I was a kid and don't want to have to try and clean it off him.

These are not to offend anyone, but to start off I am probably going to be one paranoid momma. If you don't like it...TOUGH!!!

I absolutely love...

- twix candy bars
- getting a new hair cut
- getting a pedicure (I miss them)
- watching my mom on the wii fit (its funny how competitive she is [even though she says she isn't])
- cuddling with my husband (he is so sweet and has been so understanding lately)
- getting my siblings approval (it makes me feel good when they agree with me)
- friends checking on me
- feeling Baby Haynes kick
- getting to listen to Baby Haynes heart beat when I go to the doctor
- when Kari asks my opinion of something (it makes me feel important)
- naps
- my nieces and nephews
- having a day off
- cookie dough
- cake batter
- brownie batter
- sleeping in
- looking at baby stuff
- oreos and milk (yum)
- listening to tuck talk on the phone...he's so cute but you can't always understand him
- watching hunter and tucker play baseball on the wii
- having clean sheets on my bed
- getting new shoes


Sadly for now, that is all I can come up with. My strongly dislike post was much longer. Sad day.

Lil Jacquie Tagged Me

So I don't know how to do a link and have you just click on their name so Jacquie http://thebedkefam.blogspot.com tagged me.

Here are the rules:

1. Link the Person who Tagged you.

2. Mention rules on your blog.

3. Tell about 6 quirks of yours.

4. Tag 6 fellow bloggers to do the same.

5. Leave a comment to let them know.

1. The shower curtain has to get closed after anyone showers. If I go in the bathroom and it's open I have to close it before I'll even go to the bathroom. I don't know why, but it drives me crazy if it isn't closed.

2. It is not good enough for someone to put the toilet seat down at my house. They have to put the seat and the lid down. If Adam forgets and only puts the seat down, I call him into the bathroom and said "Did you forget something sweetheart." He waits for me to turn around puts the lid down and says "No. I didn't forget anything I have no clue what you are talking about."

3. I hate animal hair being on me. It drives me crazy. I guess I get that from working at the cleaners and having to lint brush it off the dirty clothes so it wouldn't spread and get on everyone else's clothes. I hated that. My sister-in-law has a cat and there is cat hair everywhere at their house. It just drives me crazy. I get all itchy and then I start to smell cat odors and it just disgusts me.

4. When I do laundry, the pants cannot have one leg inside out and the other right side out. I don't know what Adam does when he takes his jeans off, but it drives me crazy when I go to do laundry. I have to fix it. If he is standing next to me, I chunk it at him and say "did you forget something?" He loves that quote at our house.

5. I don't cook. I cooked at school a lot. I baked too. My roommates and their friends and boyfriends can attest to that (right Jac and Ryan). I only knew how to make big pots of stuff and cooking for one sucked, so when I cooked I would share with anyone and everyone. I was constantly calling Court and Mom for recipes on how to make things. I am home now. Married to the greatest guy and I've only cooked for the poor guy like 5 times. We eat at mom's all the time. Probably because I still hate leftovers and still only know how to make food for several people and so I just don't do it. (Also I have a very picky husband. The only veggie he will eat is corn, he won't eat salad or anything like that. He hates sour cream, cream of chicken soup, etc. So if I even think about cooking with that kind of stuff he will try it but doesn't like it.)

6. I get in OCD modes where everything has to be clean. I get lazy and don't care if our shoes are all over the room or if our textbooks are all over the living room and then one random day it hits me that I can't stand it anymore. So I clean like crazy. It is getting harder to bend over though.

i tag: Caryn, Janelle, Heather, Sarah, Shayla, Maren

So..

I commented on Jacquie's blog and told her I have crazy news. Well I do. I went home last night and worked on my speech with Adam until almost 1 am. He was so tired poor thing and could barely stay awake. I finally got it read through once. I was having such a hard time getting through it. I kept telling Adam to stop the clock and I was starting over. I was so nervous and stumbling over my words and it was almost like I couldn't get a breath. I would have to stop occasionally to take a deep breath. It was at first not even four minutes and he told us it had to be 4-6 but preferably around 5 minutes. 5 Minutes? Are you kidding me? I couldn't even get it to 4. So Adam helped me expound my stories to make my speech longer. I got through it and wahoo it was 5 minutes and 23 seconds. I was amazed. I finally did it. So I went to sleep and woke up and showered and went over it again this morning. I was so nervous. While driving to school my stomach was in knots. It felt as though my gallbladder was still in and I was having one of those attacks. I knew it was just nerves and it would all go away. I was the 4th person to sign up on the board. I was glad I wasn't first, but glad I wasn't last either.

As I sat in my chair I continued to read over my speech over and over while occasionally talking to Matt to kinda get my stress to go down. Class starts at 8 am and the minute hand was getting closer and closer to the 12. I knew it was almost time and that I would have to give my speech soon. Well Jacquie here is the crazy news....The secretary of the communication department came in and told us our professor wouldn't make it to class today due to a family emergency. So take roll and come across the hall and leave it with me. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I was getting so ready to give my speech. Only for the fact that I wanted it to be done and over with and the weight lifted off my shoulders. I now have to wait until Tuesday to give my speech. So I have 5 more days of stress and grief. At least now I can practice it more to make sure I really know it. I feel as though I am just reading it and I want to learn it so well that I barely have to use my notecards. So there you have it. I guess it is a blessing because the Lord knew I wasn't really ready to give my speech.

I even put on my maternity jeans today so that i would look decent for my speech. They are way to big in the waist and fall down all the time. I dunno what the deal is because they are elastic. UGH. So gay.

I also had to go to work to check on the new girl to show her how to do a few monthly reports and statements since the new month has started. I felt like I was up there for hours on end. I am just really starting to not like that place and its giving me the heebee-geebees. I am tired of having to do everything. I wish I could just hand my replacement all of my knowledge of working there and say here you go now take over. I have given her little responsibilities like making sure everyone cleans up the store, the schedule, etc. I just wish I could hand it all over to her. I have worked there for a few years so its knowledge that you just take in from being there and working.

So there is the saga and crazy news. I can't wait until lil baby Haynes is here because then I can post about him and his pictures and my blog wont be so blah! :)

Hmmm

So you know that feeling of this is my last semester of school and I am done....Yeah Senioritis....I have it bad. My husband can attest to the fact that I hate doing homework. I hate getting up and going to class on Monday nights and Tuesday and Thursday mornings. I hate having to go to work. I am to the point where I am ready to just be on my own schedule and do my own thing.

I have a speech to give tomorrow in class and I am so nervous. I hate speaking in front of people. In fact a member of the bishopric came and talked to Adam and me back in July or so and I said if you are asking us to speak next week, we are going to be out of town. I think I get it from my Grandmother. I think my mom can count on one hand the number of times her mom has spoken in church. I think the members of the church know not to ask her because she will say no about 95% of the time. Grammer if you reading this, you know you cannot disagree with me. :) My speech is about the dangers of driving while talking on your cell phone. I admit I do it all the time and have texted a time or two when I have been alone in the car. If someone else is in the car, I hand them my phone and make them text (usually it's Kari or Adam). Adam doesn't like me driving anymore either. Appariently since I have gotten pregnant, my balance is still okay due to the wii fit, but my driving has gotten bad, I spill on myself all the time (for a while I couldn't go a meal without getting it on the front of me [again like my grandmother]). Anyways back to my speech. Adam helped me find lots of good info and stats, but I am so scared. I am also scared that when he critiques me in front of the class it is going to be bad and then because I'm hormonal, I'll cry like a baby. Kari's fiancee is in my class and gave his on Tuesday and it is hard to beat. He was amazing. I just hope I can do it between the 4-6 minutes.

Moving right along. I know that I made it sound as though I hate it. I love that I am going to be a mom, but I hate the fact that my body is going through all these weird changes. I am grateful that I am able to get pregnant. I have a really good friend that has tried to get pregant and couldn't and my sister-in-law as well. My heart aches for them.

I also wish that I had a rich uncle our cousin or something that could give me a lil bit of money so we could move out of the trailer for my lil sister and fiancee to move into it in november after they get married. There is a cute apartment in bmt but adam said it might be a little too much money. UGH. Maybe I can be adopted into my friend John and Christie's family and I can be their forth child!!! :) They just have to give me money every month. I am only kidding John and Christie. I am very said that y'all left though and moved away.

That's my saga for the day. Hope you enjoyed and wish me luck on my speech tomorrow. UGH I am so scared.